Tino's Flowery Thoughts

I hate that l kissed him Yes l hate that l loved him Yaah it's me saying my mind I wasted my time How could l have thought that he was the one Wish l could erase him from my memory Infact l hate myself for being stupid  I hate that l felt for him I hate that we met I hate everything about us I wish if l could live like we never met. I want to ignore him And the same time l want to revenge for all the pain am going through But l feel as if u ain't worth fighting for I should ignore the feeling but how can l when lm filled with regrets Written by Ruvimbo Chatyoka

Eyes that sparkle, a captivating gaze, The way you look at me, sets my soul ablaze. Your presence, a comfort, a calming tide, In your confidence, a safe haven I confide. Little gestures, whispers of your soul, The warmth of your breath, a story untold. Skin like embers, a fire's embrace, Every word you speak, a smile on my face. The touch that lingers, a spark ignites, The way you see me, through love's gentle lights. A fierce protector, a shield by my side, No need to perform, just in you I confide. Your presence, a beacon, that sets me alight, Unveiling a me, bathed in your warm, golden light. You make me feel feelings, long thought out of reach, My own inner light, you tenderly teach. You are my light, a guiding star so bright, Leading me forward, into love's gentle night. 

The monster in me  Is the monster in you?  People call it love  Well love is overrated  I call it an addiction❤️  We are toxic for each other Still, I am addicted to you I can’t seem to get enough of you  No matter what I always want more People go to rehab for stuff like this but, Lucky me there is no rehab for people like me Will I be forever addicted? Toxic but I want all of it.

I could worship you but you are not God I could call you my king but you are not my daddy You make me happy You call me your babie You kinda my best friend  I am your flower You are my person  I tell you things I never told anybody  You always find a way to cheer me up when am low Thinking of you makes me smile  I feel you I want you I like how easy you make it for me  You are my boothang.

 Yes I do I like you  But I am sorry for not being able to say it back Maybe for me, they are not just words, I can not say ‘I love you’ yet my heart is still healing  Healing for I once said those exact words too soon I know I want you But I am not sure for how long  I would have lied forever but forever might be tomorrow  I wish I could say I need you, You have shown me nothing but kindness and love  I don’t want you to go but I will be selfish to keep you  All I can tell you is I wish I could heal faster so, I can be able to keep you.

 When I think of him I bit my lower lip Thinking of the day I last saw him He kissed me in the middle of an argument  An argument I still wish I didn’t start He pushed me against the wall  Lifted me up like I was no adult  He showed me that he knew every corner that makes me weak He didn’t make me ask for more, but he gave it to me so good I knew he was no type to leave a woman hanging but didn’t know he was that ‘good’ If I had known it was my last time getting  I wouldn’t have let him stop He gave it to me so good that when he said goodbye I didn’t believe it was over

  I have so many questions running in my head! I need answers but I have no one to ask Is it I have no one to ask or maybe I do not believe the answers I get? Why is it every time it is different, but the happiness it brings is the same? They say Google has answers for everything I googled but I did not get satisfaction I want to know how and why it is still called  'love'  even if it feels different from the love I know I have thought about it, tried to avoid it, but I always end up in it or writing about it I need an expert yet I do not believe he or she exists Some say love hurts, but why does it feel so damn good for me Some say it is hard, then why do I easily find love Some say it is passionate, I would say it is unpredictable I could go on and on with the differences and the misunderstandings But seriously what is Love?

 She had made him look like the man of her dreams  She was blindly trusting him  She had created her own illusions that she needed no proof to know he loves her Little did she know it was all in her heard Try to warn her about the man she was really dating you will become an enemy She was so loyal that he knew he had her right where he wanted her He knew that once-loyal always loyal No matter how much he had to break her heart  When it heals it beats for him No matter how many betrayals she remains loyal so she will not lose the man of her dreams  To her, he was perfect, and just like everyone she had given him room for mistakes  It took her a year of pain and suffering to realize it wasn’t love but a perfect illusion

 She had seen a wife in me She told me I was perfect for her She had made it her goal to make me the happiest woman in the world I knew she could give me all the happiness I could ever want, But I would not be able to give her just half of the happiness she will be offering I wished I was not broken, so I will be able to keep her But wishes will always be wishes  I had to let her down softly  I couldn't be her lover but I needed her as a friend Too bad she was in deep with me I lost her I miss her every day, I wish I could take back time  And change the day that she fell in love with me so I could still be her best friend.

 Putting my heart on paper Words fail me Actions are not enough How can I show you?  How can I express the feeling?  Heart beating Hands trembling Not sure I understand the feeling  Is it real? If it is give me a sign  I crave your presence  My soul wonders how it feels to be loved by you  I yearn for touch Is it crush? Is it love?  Is it lust? I need to know... Edited by Thandiwe Ncube